Amateur Baker

Saturday, February 2, 2008

I'm really immensely worried and scared about IFC (I...... Field Camp)

I really can't express the great amount of fear that's present within me
And yes, I know that the whole company will be doing this together but still......

I'm worried if I could even survive the the first 3 days........
I'm worried if I can endure the gigantic amount of stress the trainings will place on me
I'm not sure I have the mental capabilities to make it through the 6 days

I don't want to die there....not in Pulau Tekong, not out in the field, not somewhere which is miles away from my home....
Even if I were to die before my parents...I would want them to be beside me.....I don't want to die alone........

Can someone give me the power to go through the 6 days........
Is there any faith which I can hold on to??
Hope, is it really enough to get me through....

I want to go through NS, I really don't wish to die.....

I'm scared.......really scared......much more scared than throwing a few hundred lizards on me, much more scared than being trapped in the lift, much more scared than being locked up alone in a huge dark room...........
Can anyone, anything comfort me just by a little??

Crying doesn't release the emotion, it only increases the exploding amount of fear......
Can you tell me what to do????

|Shi Hao| 9:07 PM|

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