Saturday, November 3, 2012
This must have been the longest period of time between my last and my latest post. It has almost been a month. Been wanted to blog but always got distracted mid-way, plus school hasn't really been kind to me, be it academics of CCA. Anyway. kept listening to this song for the past few days. Been trying to appreciate the message that the song is trying to convey, but I just couldn't bring myself to believe in the goodness of life and people :(
People
People,
People who need people
Are the luckiest people in the world
We're children, needing other children
And yet letting a grown-up pride
Hide all the need inside
Acting more like children than children
Lovers are very special people
They're the luckiest people in the world
With one person one very special person
A feeling deep in your soul
Says you were half now you're whole
No more hunger and thirst
But first be a person who needs people
People who need people
Are the luckiest people in the world
With one person one very special person
No more hunger and thirst
But first be a person who needs people
People who need people
Are the luckiest people in the world...
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已经失去了念书的动力，彻彻底底地失去了。现在每次去上课，只为了完成日复一日行程。至于是否从课堂上有所收获，已无关紧要了。
念了十几年的书，在最后关头却放弃了，虽说得上是前功尽弃，但我实在已找不到让我能够坚持到最后的理由了。我也不知道在接下来的日子应该怎么走。最好向走到了悬崖的最尾端。眼前只有无际凶险的大海，稍微往前踩就会坠入眼前的水中，给凶悍无情的浪涛给吞噬。是进也优，退也有。惟有停留在我站在的这块小小的土地上，等待上苍给我点儿提示，教我接下来究竟该怎么走。
好像闭上眼睛，睡个一年半载的，把眼前所有的烦恼都睡去，我不想去面对他们，不想像去面对他们这些扰人心绪，折腾我心神的蛇虫鼠蚁。好累哦，真的好累哦，滚烫的额头也把我整个人给弄得昏昏沉沉的。但我却还尝试着去思索，思索着我人生所盖有的目标，想试着从我这装满垃圾的脑袋瓜中找出些线索或指示，好指引我越过到海的道路。但垃圾就是垃圾，继续找也就是缘木求鱼。
我，就还是继续歇着吧，也是能够等到谁来接应我，或也许，我就会再此生根，渐渐变为一个化石，一个孤立的活化石。
|Shi Hao| 4:52 PM|
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